I've been doing some thinking...
What have I most wanted to do in my life?
It's always been one form of escape or another.
When I was younger, I wanted to ride my bicycle across the United States. Then, it was to climb the hills to Machu Picchu. Now, it's much more simple. I just want to detach. Maybe get a bicycle with a basket on the back with my things and some pencils and paper. I want to just wander from place to place away from telephones, tv, computers and the internet. I want to be alone with my thoughts and with my hands and create something. No job, no commitments. I want to be free to explore myself and my world. I want to live the homeless hobo life. I'd sell my drawings for food, each one a masterpiece for the person who helped pave my way. I'd sleep in a tent and eat when I'm hungry. No coffee, no tea, drinking the water of the earth. I want to be a modern flower child of the 21st century. I want to be like a modern Timothy Leary I want to "turn on, tune in and drop out." But of course, never with drugs. I'm still against drugs and drinking and any kind of altering substances that man and God created. I just want to BE. Simply just BE. Why is that such a hard thing to do?
